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I have no clue as to what I'm writing about.

I long for the ocean. It seems my friends are less enthusiastic than I to be out and about in the world. To go hiking and swimming. I'll just wait 'till I get my license to do what I want.

Stress, not from school or work but from relationships. Friendships to be exact. I'm always the middle man because I put myself in that position. I'll take the blame because I don't want others to be burdened for stupid reasons. I'm not trying to be a martyr. I can barely fix my own problems. I guess I just want everyone to get along but that's not working anymore. I'm just causing more and more problems. I hate trying to be everyone's friend sometimes. I don't know, I bite off more than I can chew and get screwed by my dumb choice to be on everyone's good side.

And out of all of this the only good that's really happened was hanging out with her for a few days.
I'm not confused about my feelings. I just hope I know what I want. Though I feel like a hypocrite for telling other girls who were interested in me that I'm uninterested because of the age difference. Everyone's telling me that age shouldn't matter and it shouldn't. There's just so much crap drama going on right now that I want to wait until it's over... Idk I hope things go well....

Goodnight, I doubt anyone reads my posts anyway.